Stay at home wife...

When I was working I remember being exhausted, ran down, irritated, usually pissed off, and all of that usually resulted in being "tipsy" by bedtime because I had already helped myself to a nice relaxing bottle of wine! And when I would be at the point where I was just going to lose it, I would look at those stay at home wives and would be so jealous. I would think to myself how much I would love to stay home and be in charge on laundry, a clean house, and anything else that needed to be done.
I was laid off on February 17th. Even though that was only about 2 months ago, let me tell you it feels like a lifetime!! And as these two months have passed, I am no longer jealous of those housewives, actually I am wondering if they feel this shitty about themselves. See I knew when I got laid off we were going to run into this problem, I would either have to find a job immediately or wait until after the wedding because no one is going to hire me when I inform them that I need 3 weeks off in May for a wedding and honeymoon, especially after only being employed by them for 3 weeks!!
So this has been an incredibly hard transition for me! Harder than I ever imagined. However, it does help that Kim works every 3 days, which sometimes ends up only being twice and week. With her home, I don't feel quite like a "loser" because I seem to forget its a weekday and just enjoy spending all my time with her. However, then I feel bad for her because when she needs to go take a piss, I'm like a puppy standing outside the door hoping she doesn't take too long. For god sakes, I wanted to walk around walmart the other day after we were done shopping because it seemed better than coming home and washing the same damn clothes and dusting the same living room!! I really think Im losing my mind....