Date Nights

Kim and I decided that we have slipped into a routine...wake up, get ready for work, go to work, come home, eat dinner, get things ready for work the next day/get things done around the house, go to bed, wake up and do it all over again...all day, every day. So we felt like we were just passing each other in the hallway, sitting across from each other at the dinner table, and laying next to each other at night. The usual, "How was your day", "How was work", "Goodmorning, "Goodnight" etc. Two weeks ago I proposed doing a date night once a week and alternating weeks. The first week was mine and we cooked dinner together (which is something we NEVER do) and we got comfy on the couch and watched a sweet love movie.

Last week it was Kim's turn. She took me to see Whip It (which was a kick ass movie), to dinner, and then surpirised me with 6X6 canvas's and finger paint. We sat at the kitchen table, REO on the stereo, and we painted these canvas's!! We did rainbows, hearts, peace signs, and other silly things!! It was so much fun and quite messy!!

So this week it is my turn and I'm at a loss!! Im swamped with work, working shitty hours this week which has me leaving very early and then not returning until 7 or 8 at night. So I have no idea what to do. She leaves this weekend to go on a mother/son trip with Ryan to go fly fishing! I will be at the hospital all weekend because my cousin (who is like my sister) is having a baby and kim and I have taken on the "baby daddy" role since the piece of shit who donated hasn't been seen in about 8 1/2 months (don't even get me started on that!).

So all in all we have a exhausting week, ending in weekends apart. I really need some sweet idea that will just blow her away!! I have tried googling ideas, but some of them are just stupid! Any ideas???

Tomorrow Is Not Guaranteed, Unfortunately

Its weird that I haven't blogged since before our wedding. I still get on all the time and check out everyone's blogs, but I haven't personally blogged. I have had so much go on in my life since the last time I have blogged...our amazing wedding, a new wonderful job, beginning a wonderful life with my *wife* (still love saying that), a packed for summer, and now school has started, lives are back to normal. However, yesterday got some news that has affected me more than I ever thought it would have, and for that reason I decided maybe blogging would help.

Everyone has different experiences in highschool and we all end and say goodbye to everyone, thinking that there will always be that day in the future when we will surely run into that person again. Either at the high school reunion, a bar, a friends party, etc. Never do you imagine that that is it and you will never have another opportunity.

I went to a small highschool, so I don't understand how it feels when someone says that they don't know people that graduated with them. I knew everyone that I graduated with, as well for the grades older and younger than I was. It was a small school, so you usually knew people pretty well.

Yesterday I was called by my best friend informing me that a girl we went to highschool with was killed in a car accident. Someone who we all knew and talked to regularly when we were in school. Haven't really talked to her since then, I don't think. But either way, I graduated about 5 years ago. She wasn't my best friend and we didnt talk on a regular basis. However, now that I know I never can, it has really affected me. I never would have imagined myself taking this as hard as I have, but I guess im just in complete shock that this happened.

Its crazy to think that maybe five years ago when I said goodbye to alot of people, it was for forever. Its sad and hard to think about. Not sure how I am supposed to feel about this, all I know is that im just sad and just down. Her family and friends are all in my thoughts, and I hope that this ultimately brings some of closer together, because its proof that we are not guaranteed tomorrow.

Apparantly I suck at Blogging...

So my friend Joann told me how bad I am at this whole blogging thing...so here I am! I am stressed beyond belief since we have 10 days until our wedding. I have nothing inspiring to say, nothing funny. So...have a great week!! LOL Are you happy ribbet?? Here is an updated picture of the two soon to be newleyweds!! Everyone keep your fingers crossed for sunshine on May 9th...or I might end up finally being a "bridezilla".

Stay at home wife...

When I was working I remember being exhausted, ran down, irritated, usually pissed off, and all of that usually resulted in being "tipsy" by bedtime because I had already helped myself to a nice relaxing bottle of wine! And when I would be at the point where I was just going to lose it, I would look at those stay at home wives and would be so jealous. I would think to myself how much I would love to stay home and be in charge on laundry, a clean house, and anything else that needed to be done.
I was laid off on February 17th. Even though that was only about 2 months ago, let me tell you it feels like a lifetime!! And as these two months have passed, I am no longer jealous of those housewives, actually I am wondering if they feel this shitty about themselves. See I knew when I got laid off we were going to run into this problem, I would either have to find a job immediately or wait until after the wedding because no one is going to hire me when I inform them that I need 3 weeks off in May for a wedding and honeymoon, especially after only being employed by them for 3 weeks!!
So this has been an incredibly hard transition for me! Harder than I ever imagined. However, it does help that Kim works every 3 days, which sometimes ends up only being twice and week. With her home, I don't feel quite like a "loser" because I seem to forget its a weekday and just enjoy spending all my time with her. However, then I feel bad for her because when she needs to go take a piss, I'm like a puppy standing outside the door hoping she doesn't take too long. For god sakes, I wanted to walk around walmart the other day after we were done shopping because it seemed better than coming home and washing the same damn clothes and dusting the same living room!! I really think Im losing my mind....

What to do when neighbors are homophobic pricks!! (long)

Ok so im at home by myself because Kim is at the mall currently trying to look for an outfit for our wedding. At last minute, Kim has decided that we should finish our office (which has been about a 2 year project!!!) since we have people coming in town this weekend and staying at our house for the bachelorete party. So I am actually working (manual labor at that!) in the office, trying to scrape the rest of the walls so when Kim gets home we can finish!! So im in my little office working and i hear a "knock, knock, knock" on my front door. Weird...3:00 in the afternoon and Im getting a knock on my door! Well just keep in mind I have alot of anxiety issues and the fear of being killed (of course, I read newspapers and all of the internet, the weird shit that can happen to you. For god sakes, Im scared to answer the door for the fedex guy!!). So I peak around the corner of our office and I don't see anyone. Im frozen there because our main door is open, so all there is is our big glass screen door! Well all of a sudden I see a hand reach over and knock on our door again!! So this person is standing to where I can't see him (on purpose!!) and is knocking!! So my first instinct is to go slam the big door closed and lock it!! So as I do that, this person steps into view point and of course its our favorite person, who knows our house all too well, a police officer.
So I open the door and step out onto our front porch. The officer proceeds to tell me that they have had "several!!!" complaints about Kim's jeep that is parked across from our house. So this is what this is the load of bull shit i get...."Ma'm we have gotten several complaints about your vehicle tags being expired and for the jeeps flat tire." I respond to the cop... "Sir, our tags expired yesterday. I have the stickers to put on the vehicles in my car, I just had not had the opportunity to put them on yet, considering I just got them this morning and had a few more errands to run after that, so i just now made it home. As for the jeep, from here I can see no flat tire." This is what officer jackass said back "Well I'm going to go ahead and let this be the warning, I do have the authority to put a 24 hour ticket on your car saying that if the stickers are not on in 24 hours, I can have it towed. However, Im gonna be a nice guy and just go ahead and assume you are going to take care of this. As for the tire, it is actually low, not flat, but it will also need to be taken care of." Ok if I say that i have the fucking stickers, why would I intentionaly not put them on. What kind of fucking idiot do you think i am?? Well what I wanted to say back to him, I figured would land me in the wonderful wyandotte county jail. So I simply said "ok officer, I will get the stickers put on immediately. And once my fiance gets home, I will have go air up her tire. Thank you". Oh, of course he felt the need to go ahead and repeat himself some more, in case maybe im hard of hearing and didn't understand him the first fucking time, which could be possible with his white trash dip of tobacco in his mouth that appears to be falling out! He tells me again, that he could issue me a warning, but is just a "nice guy" and is gonna let it slide. Okay, so what kind of fucking homphobic ignorant people live around me?? Our fucking tags expired on the 31st of march, which was yesterday and I got them today!! Our neighbors literally call the cops atleast once a month on the most ridiculous things. Once a cop told us "when a mouse farts in your house, we get called!!" How ridiculous is that?? Where is harassment charges?? Well I have a little something for them...our friends got us a bright colorful rainbow flag and it will be flying high for all those homphobic assholes to see!!

Vows- what do you say??

So I showed Kim our blog, she said I did a good job! :) We will see where she goes from here!! So we have about 42 days left until we get married. One thing that we decided to do with our wedding was write our own vows..but where do you even begin??

See the thing is, is I love Kim more than anything and given some time I could probably write over 500 things that I love and adore about her. However, I believe our guests dont want to sit through a 9 hour ceremony filled with mushy vows that are making them either throw up in their mouths or jealous that they dont have what we do. So how do you limit it?

Also, do I start from the time we met, or just leave it why I love her. Im thinking that maybe I should just start writing and then in a few days go back and read what I wrote and make changes and then continue the cycle until the day before the wedding.

The thing that makes me so nervous is because I know that Kim will read her vows first and they will be so beautiful!! Then I will go to read my vows and in my mind i will be thinking "Fuck, I should have done this diferently!!". Hmmm not sure what to do!!

I think today since it is freezing out and the roads are horrible which means I wont be going anywhere, I will spend most of my afternoon writting and scribbling out shit that I think is sweet until I look at it again and it sounds like something a 4th grader would say to their first girlfriend...whatever!

Law & Order SVU has a marathon on today and so far thats what I have spent my day doing, so I probably will continue until about 10 and then go to bed...without any vows!

Our First Post- Wow I kind of feel like a nerd!

So this is our first attempt at this whole blogging thing and I have to say I feel like a nerd!! But o-well!! Its 1:30 in the morning and of course I am awake. Lately I feel like I dont sleep much..mainly because I have "wedding brain"! All I think about is the wedding and am really starting to get stressed about it. So then when I go to bed I have horrible dreams about the worst things that could happen before the wedding i.e. Kim dying in a horrible fire two weeks before the wedding and then I proceed to live in my wedding dress for months, Kim deciding this isn't what she wants so she leaves me for the woman who plays the "other woman" in The Dutchess... just weird stuff like that!! Apparantly according to the other brides on The Knot, this is a very normal thing and I should not be worried...which is a relief LOL. So Kim is at the station and has no idea that we even have a blog at this point and I am sure when I show her in the morning she will not even be remotely excited about it and show little interest...and then randomly one day I am going to get on here and she will have posted blogs and will be completely addicted..just like myspace! Well not sure what I am supposed to say in these blogs..and I feel like I have just rambled on.
Talk to you soon,

~Theresa